Archive for November, 2010

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independent.

November 29, 2010

I thought in the past couple years, I had overcome my discomfort for being alone. Unfortunately, I was wrong. It’s somewhat upsetting to me. Being 24, I think this is something that I should have a handle on. I mean, I’ve mastered opening jars, doing minor household troubleshooting, and killing large bugs (though they still make me nervous).

Hotel rooms are still the worst. When I’m home in Madison, I’ve got my office-mate at work for 8 hours and two house-mates at home. The fact of the matter is, I’m never really alone except in hotels. And the comforting factor in having to travel for my job is that I stay in the same hotels. So that makes it a little bit better. I used to have to leave the TV on, just to have some background noise; I’ve gotten over that though. But a while back, I missed a connection and spent the night in Detroit. The room reminded me of the motel in The Devil’s Rejects, which kinda freaked me out. Then my whole theory of being ok with being alone went out the window. Though perhaps the lesson should be not to watch horror movies ever.

Weirdly, in the grand scheme of things, I tend to be more introverted than extroverted. I don’t necessarily want to be interacting with other people all the time. But having people around makes me more comfortable. It’s easier for me to take a nap on my couch in the living room than in my own room (in fact I am awesome at sleeping while other people are around). It feels nicer to catch up on emails when my housemates are cooking dinner or also working on their computers. And coffee shops are the best because there’s always people there doing their own thing.

I’m about 99% sure this is due to growing up in a big family. Someone’s always home, nearby – usually within earshot. I just never spent any time really alone. Then college wasn’t different. I always had a housemate and a boyfriend. And after college hasn’t been different – two housemates and a long distance boyfriend. So part of me feels like I’m missing out on some weird rite of passage into independence and growing up. And then the non-paranoid part of me thinks that’s ridiculous because what else am I suppose to do other than move into a place of my own and become single – both of which I think would be awful and therefore, not really at the top of my to-do list (whether or not I would turn out independent).

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ny style.

November 23, 2010

It’s official. New York makes me feel like I dress badly. It also kinda makes me feel fat – though that may be due more to having gained 10 lbs in the last month than anything else. Either way, New York did not help, since all I ever do there is eat, sleep and drink. But seriously, for the amount that I look at fashion and pass judgment on how people look, you’d think I would look a little better. But my T-shirt and jeans preference is only overcome by my dislike for being under-dressed (which luckily doesn’t happen too often at home).

Everyone’s skinny in New York. It’s not that they’re just not fat, everyone’s actually skinny. Perhaps this is exemplified by the fact they wear skinny jeans and tight dresses and high heels. But it seems even the skinny people want to be skinnier. I sat in an elevator listening to a girl about my height discuss with her boyfriend/husband how she would just feel better if she was 105 lbs. The guy is like “Well, I don’t want you to starve yourself”. Then they realized this is an awkward discussion in an elevator with other people. And I realized I would probably think similarly if I never saw people who were larger than me too.

Then there’s the fashion sense. It’s a different world from the Midwest. The whole sweatshirt/jeans with makeup and hair, pretty much non-existent. Almost everyone has at least one “hot at the moment” item on. I imagine it would feel a little like an arms race in order to stay on top of the trends. You would be forced to shop every season. But what surprised me the most is the effect on guys was just as noticeable (if not more so) than the girls. If they weren’t in suits for work, then they were in button-downs or trendy T-shirts or fancy sneakers or nice wool jacket + scarf (or all of the above). First, it’s November. While it is cold enough to warrant a jacket, the scarf is completely unnecessary and therefore only decorative. Second, I’m very happy it’s not one-sided.

I secretly want to dress like a New Yorker but without all that effort. Chances of that happening: 0.

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sick.

November 21, 2010

I’m sick. Not “coughing up a lung” sick. Not “throwing up” sick. Not “can’t get out of bed” sick. Just the good old “I feel weak and my throat hurts and I’m having weird temperature issues” sick. Enough that I went home early two days in a row and left my gym class early the third day. This is no time for me to be getting sick. It’s the holidays, the boyfriend is visiting and I have trips scheduled for three weeks in a row.

I have a sneaking suspicion this is because I decided to forgo my flu shot. I elected that half an hour of work was more important than waiting in line. Though I think it would have to be more karma than the actual shot. I never even got flu shots up until my senior year at college and I haven’t been sick in 6 years. Not since that terrible cough freshman year when I pulled a muscle. And that wasn’t even really sick.

Or it could be due to being around sick customers for several weeks. Between customers who had pneumonia one after the other and the one who had pneumonia that turned into hypoxia – I think the odds were against me. Or it could be traveling back and forth between cold normal November weather (in NY and WI) and the still warm South (AL and FL). Is anyone’s body really meant to make that change so quickly?

I tried so hard to avoid being sick. I tried to not eat terribly while in Alabama. I started taking a multi-vitamin (specifically for females!), which is the hardest habit for me to acquire. I attempted to sleep as much as I could. It just didn’t do the trick. So here’s to myspeedy recovery.

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thoughts.

November 14, 2010

10 random thoughts from the last several weeks:

  1. Time at the beach solves everything. The only other thing that even comes close to giving me the same feeling is watching traffic from high up.
  2. New Yorkers either dress really really well or really really terribly. Wisconsinites always always dress in between. Advice of the day: jeans and a decent T-shift take just as much effort as sweatpants and a crappy T-shirt.
  3. Drinking in first class without eating is a terrible idea. I have no idea how much I’m drinking and I get a little air sick without drinking. White wine is usually better than the red too.
  4. I don’t “get” modern art. But it can still amuse me for hours. Also, I like the building of the MoMA better than the art.
  5. Sad discovery: Korean food is my last choice in Asian food. And Asian food is the best take-out.
  6. Somehow I fail at using faucets in New York. It makes me feel stupid and it seems to be a problem only in that city.
  7. Friendly racists baffle me. I don’t know what to do with them.
  8. I have a new-found love for blazers. They look good on most people, always make you look put together, and they keep you warm. Perfection!
  9. Hard suitcases are not as good as soft. But having four wheels is the best.
  10. Big purses – Awesome because I can carry my entire life in them. Awful because I can never find anything again.
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shame.

November 13, 2010

Low point of my weekend – when discussing how “kids these days” don’t know anything, the question of the year that 9/11 happened was used as an example. My memory said one thing. His said differently. And we had to resort to looking it up on his fancy phone to solve the mystery. For anyone who thought otherwise – it was 2001.

At least I was right.

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news.

November 12, 2010

I watched two news stories this morning. One about the new packaging plan for cigarettes to make smoking less appealing. The other about the controversial book on Amazon – The Pedophile’s Guide to Love and Pleasure. Without doing any further research into either topic, these are my thoughts.

Cigarette packaging – From what I gathered, the new plan is to have nice little “no smoking” ads on about 50% of the package. These ads would be pictures of destroyed lungs or teeth or people with cancer – with generic statements like “Smoking can cause cancer”. The point is that you can’t miss a warning that’s so significant on the package. I’m not really all for it though. Every single smoker I know knows it’s bad for their health – they still do it. And if I was a smoker (or even though I’m not but I do see cigarettes being sold when I’m in a convenience store), I do not need to see those same pictures of lungs that I used to see in health class. Personally, I think this seems like an unnecessary attack on smokers. Maybe we should put pictures of extremely obese people (naked to make it even more shocking) on bags of junk food or soda. I bet no one would walk down that aisle in the grocery store anymore.

Controversial book – Of course people are outraged at Amazon selling a book entitled “The Pedophile’s Guide to Love and Pleasure”. This would be a simple story if that was just the title and it was some fictional story that didn’t really have to do with pedophiles. Except that’s not the case. Apparently it’s a book that lays out a code of conduct for these people. The author stated his intention is to make juveniles safer by laying out rules for this type of person to follow, so no one gets hurt. Good intentions, but really? Do they need a book about how to act? It would be like writing a code of conduct for potential rapists. Don’t do it. What else is there to say? I have less of a problem with Amazon selling the book than I do with the fact it was written and the people who would buy it. Though I imagine if I had children, I might also be angry at the seller as well.

My sister brought up the point that a book like this might be good because our society in general does not actively try to help people who think they might be inclined to pedophilia (or any number of other problems). The general idea is that only after you do something bad, then we’ll try to rehabilitate you. But on further research into this book, it is not just a book to help you deal with ways to avoid pedophilia, but does have “how-to” parts. That is not ok. And it seems Amazon has taken the book down.

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consistency.

November 6, 2010

This is why I love Starbucks. I love finding new unique little coffee shops. But sometimes all you want is for everything to be exactly as you expect. Starbucks does just that. No matter where I go, it’s easily found. And it’s going to have the exact same drinks all the time – I know that October 1 means pumpkin spice lattes and December will always mean peppermint hot chocolate. Perhaps best of all, Starbucks means a reliable internet connection. It might sound ridiculous but being able to go to StarbucksĀ  is a huge lifesaver. Hotel internet is just too finicky some places to get any amount of work accomplished. Starbucks has never let me down.

Airlines, on the other hand, are a different story. I’m actually pretty understanding of airlines and delays – they are definitely dependent on forces that they can’t control. But the fact that even if you travel all the time, you never know exactly how it’s going to be. The planes themselves vary a lot. Service varies. Timing varies. Compensation for delays varies. So travel can be awesome one time and awful the next. That is why no one likes the airlines.